So i'm working at the office today when out of the blue i get a text message.  Since i've moved to Holland, whenever i get a text message i'm surprized since no one really messages me here.   anyway, message is from my dad asking me if i'm up fo a beer sunday night., he's apparently coming to Holland and telling me one day in advance.  So once i got home i immediately did the dishes and the laundry.  Tomorrow i'll vacuum and do more landry.  after that i have to move some shit to the basement and then i'm totally done.  The house doesn't have to be spotless, but the cleaner the better.

i just realized that my eyes are falling asleep while im writing this so its really time for me to go to sleep. 

alright, here's entry two of day two of the re-born Rod.  speaking of born or Bourne..  this message is going to be quite short.  why you ask?  well i found a video on a blog.  not the normal video, no.  the entire dvd quality film of The Bourne Ultimatum.  is it legal, i dunno.  not sure, its posted on teh internet for everyone to see, so that's exactly what i'm going to do.   interested in joining me.

http://www.biertijd.com/mediaplayer/?itemid=4067

there.  enjoy the movie, i know i will.

looks like the last time i updated this was two years go.  a lot has happened since then.  Guess most of the people i knew on here actually left which for me has its advantages.  it allows me to start off with a clean slate.  The people who i did add as friends who are still active i'm not 100% sure who they are or where i met them.  I apologize to those who will read this and might be offended by it.  Its been two years and i really can't recall.  your welcome to remind me, or if you'd rather be an onlooker from the darkness, your welcome too.  An occational comment or sighn of life is all i need.

so what has happened in two years.  looking at the last time that i wrote here i was working hard on being a workaholic and alcoholic.  well i'm glad to say i succeeded in both.  I managed to stay in Shanghai for three years, work for two years at Accenture and basically drink away all the money i made.  After two years of working for Accenture in the outsourcing department we were told that because the client had taken away the contract, we were all going to be thrown on the street.  a nice word for this is Redundant.  the only advantage is that we'd get an extra months salary.  well considering at the rate i was going with my alcholism and workaholism there really wasn't much that a months salary would do except make me drink more...  right about this time i had a moment of clarity.  not so much an apifany but more something like a moment where things seemed to make sence.  Three years of shanghai (remember i studied for a year) really had taken a tol on me.  I had a social life that most people would die for and i had a job.  What i didn't have was many sober thoughts and memories.  so when i was offered the job in The Netherlands, i grabbed it with both hands.  It was a chance for me to get out of the dragons den and actually build a life instead of spending it night in and night out in a bar or club. 

September 4th 2006 i moved back to the netherlands, this is the actual first time my name was registerd in The Netherlands.  before that time i had never been registered as living here. so after getting all the formalities out of the way, i was registered and paying taxes out of every crevis i have.  September 11th 2006 i started working in Rotterdam.  The job was exactly the same as the job i had in Shanghai, no difference at all except for the location.

naturally it was difficult to get used to being back in Holland, and to tell you the trueth after 13 months i'm still getting used to it.  i guess it doesn't help that i've been back twice and had quite the drunken fiasco.   But once i left i really started to realize how much shanghai had grown on me.  Its not that i miss the parties, its not that i miss shanghai's ever booming night life.  I actually miss the part that shanghai made me human.  Sure i'm still living and breathing here in Holland, but i've turned into a recluse. i barely go out and i really don't have any friends.  being by myself is not an issue.  but going from someone who's popular and gets called 25 times a day just to see whats going on, to three calls a month is difficult.   i've realized that although i was helping myself to an early grave i was living a life i loved.  ofcourse i should have slowed down on the drinking and the smoking and the going out.  Now that i'm in holland i'm glad to say i'm starting to drink less, i've tried to quit smoking and its kinda worked.  i quit for 4 months last time and only rebounded for two weeks.  now i'm back quiting and i've not smoked in a week.  its hard, i crave that smoke daily, but i can manage, atleast till christmas, as for the drinking, i try not to drink that much anymore, sometimes i grab a couple beers with some co-workers or some friends from the many places i've lived while i was young.  i tend to grab for a glass of whiskey in the evening, not every evening, just occationally.  

okay so i kinda ran out of a point of this story.  naturally its because i'm getting back to this whole livejournal culture.  its been too long and think this could be a really good way to get my feelings back on paper (digital paper that is).  

well its almost 11 and i've got to get up in 6 hours to get to work.  i see a lot of red lines, which i take are the spell check.  Can't really be bothered at this point to change the actual spelling mistakes so i'm just going to leave them.